i can't believe i was so stupid for so long.
why do things have to happen in the worst possible way.
why must we always learn things this way.
why must this world be such an extraordinarily, incessantly, continuously painful sphere.
why must it be like a play, where some direct and others act...
no, why must it be like a puppet show, with some in control and others unknowing. why must it be like this. why must the two be able to communicate. and once they do, why must some be incapable of understanding. why must it all be so painful.
i am so goddamned fucking alone. except for the other people who are so goddamned alone. i should have fucking known. but i didn't. why didn't i. i am so regretful.
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Just like Jesus you can pound on them nails but don't expect me to stop loving you for your own sake.
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i am the biggest shit that ever lived i shit all over people i deserve isolation and that is the only thing i am attuned to anymore
that is all
i am a shit
what the fuck am i doing here
i am not a human being
what the fuck am i here for
i am such a shit
i deserve to hate myself but i cannot even do that because i am too reasonable
i am a shit
why the fuck was i ever born
i am so grotesque
i do not deserve to sleep
i do not deserve to eat
i do not belong to the human race
i hate myself
i am so disgusting
i am so grotesque
i am an opportunist and i objectify people and i cannot believe that i am such a stupid worthless whore of a being
i deserve to have shit thrown at me
i am so fucking worthless i hate myself
i cannot believe people can look at me i am so disgusting
why do i have hair and a face and fingers what can i possibly bring that is real
why do i have a voice
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