don't know what to say. don't really feel much. except that i don't wanna get out of bed once i've finally resigned myself to it, after lots of procrastination.

when you don't wanna sleep and you don't wanna be awake either, and it takes a lot of reconciliation to conduct the actions necessary to both, you know there's something amiss.

i'm going to take some damn pills. don't give a shit. all i'm doing by waiting out the hurt is hurting myself and letting myself hurt. simple as that, goddammit.

now just watch it be lithium and efexor. oh yeah.