uhhhh
things are okay again
i'm probably going to feel cleansed again once the sun comes out because once again i'm not in love anymore. the endless cycle. at least this time i'm expecting it to happen again instead of being hopefully disillusioned.

NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE TELLS YOU, DON'T SEE MULHOLLAND DRIVE BECAUSE IT'S A PIECE OF SHIT. puh. compared to memento and following!!! that pisses me off. it's such a bad movie. it's not a film, it's a lazy piece of shit that got absolutely no details correct which is why it sucks so much.

i haven't been able to listen to music much lately. except when i'm half asleep. last night it was ani difranco's dilate, and this morning it was pearl jam's no code and radiohead's kid a (by the way ms kolar heard a jazz band at bogart's do a cover of a radiohead song!!)... yeah, so i often listen to the same music over and over again, so we all knew that already. anyways. yeah at least i was able to half listen to it, as in listening while letting the dancers go through my head, right in their element in the marlboro theater in the round. although it's funny, because dance performances there i think only occur in the auditorium. which unfortunately has a floor marked for a gym (i think... maybe i was just remembering gym floors when i was in there..) anyways yeah. i don't count this morning as really listening to music because all it evoked was my own ambitious imagination. i didn't feel anything beyond that. i prefer to be simple.

HAHAHAHHA SUM 41

the real boy george is way cooler i bet

so much for being a human for now