uhhhh
things are okay again
i'm probably going to feel cleansed again once the sun comes out because once again i'm not in love anymore. the endless cycle. at least this time i'm expecting it to happen again instead of being hopefully disillusioned.

NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE TELLS YOU, DON'T SEE MULHOLLAND DRIVE BECAUSE IT'S A PIECE OF SHIT. puh. compared to memento and following!!! that pisses me off. it's such a bad movie. it's not a film, it's a lazy piece of shit that got absolutely no details correct which is why it sucks so much.

i haven't been able to listen to music much lately. except when i'm half asleep. last night it was ani difranco's dilate, and this morning it was pearl jam's no code and radiohead's kid a (by the way ms kolar heard a jazz band at bogart's do a cover of a radiohead song!!)... yeah, so i often listen to the same music over and over again, so we all knew that already. anyways. yeah at least i was able to half listen to it, as in listening while letting the dancers go through my head, right in their element in the marlboro theater in the round. although it's funny, because dance performances there i think only occur in the auditorium. which unfortunately has a floor marked for a gym (i think... maybe i was just remembering gym floors when i was in there..) anyways yeah. i don't count this morning as really listening to music because all it evoked was my own ambitious imagination. i didn't feel anything beyond that. i prefer to be simple.

HAHAHAHHA SUM 41

the real boy george is way cooler i bet

so much for being a human for now

i think i'm starting to piss people off
i knew it would happen someday.
especially to people i really really don't want to piss off. but we'll see.
..
sigur ros is okay, but not as good as bjork or radiohead. both of which i haven't heard for awhile, it seems. atmospheric music kinda pisses me off.
it's been all pearl jam and i forget what else

every day is the same.

...
VINCENT PRICE KICKS ASS! go watch "house on haunted hill" and then "the last man on earth". god he is so cool. i wonder if he had a personal life. also watch spellbound which has a great salvador dali thing in it. and ingrid bergman and gregory peck and the priest from the parent trap who is one funny/freaky guy. what a great persona.

goodnight.

by the way, i love thom yorke
i want to meet louise post and thom yorke and bob wills and who else? oh yeah eddie vedder god eddie vedder is fucking amazing!!!!!! and erykah badu if she weren't such a snotty white-hating bitch who doesn't introduce her bands.

okay maybe robert plant since he's doing me some good right now.

hahahaha those guys from sum 41 who remind me like hell of hampshire students. thanks andy for being sort of a teenybopper and having this song on your computer.

by the way i'm hearing the freeman suv's coming up. they're coming up alright they're coming up.

yeah i want to party with those people.

why are there never any fucking parties when i want one.
maybe there will be at marlboro.

hey it's acdc. and they're singing "oy" pretending to be the ramones or something.

harshal's coming over; i have a friend. i forgot. i hope he has money again because i don't fucking have any money.

my teeth are bad i'm going to go brush them, thank you.

oh by the way, here's a healthy fact. i am anorexic, because:
i often don't call zack because i'm afraid to be around him because he forces me to eat. because he thinks food is a joy even though he thinks sex and decorations and perfume are stupid. WHY THE HELL IS FOOD BETTER? i hate inconsistency. bastard.

sorry zack you just piss the hell out of me.

thank you people for being beautiful.